TIME FOR CHANGE

In the last week, I have thought about all the things I would like to see changes in.

First change .... I did something totally out of charactor for me. I went shopping.

First, bought a new suitcase. I told myself I was not going to put any of my old clothes in it. (only exceptions were my uniforms) If I want to start at a new place, well, I thought I should start with new clothes too. I really don't mind it as long as it is for someone else. That is so much easier. For me, well, I think I need a personal shopper sometimes. In the last few days, I bought 4 pairs of jeans, at least 20 shirts, two sweaters, a down coat, flipflops (with monica) and 3 or 4 interchangeable work-out outfits. So where did I fall short? Shoes. Not a big deal if you are short or average in size like the rest of San Antonio. Not me. I am 5'11" and my shoe is a 10 1/2 to an 11. So cute shoes are not always available. Me, I am happy in my boots (combat boots) or running sneakers. Well now here is the problem. All these new clothes and a pair of flipflops. I think should I mention I will be moving to Korea in a few days. I'm told it is pretty cold there at the moment. The good thing is, when I get to Korea, I can have shoes made for me.

I am almost done packing. All my new clothes fit (plus my uniforms) and four pairs of shoes. Now just the little things like bathrooms things, eletronics and some books. Things to keep me entertained until the rest of things arrive. (about 3 weeks)

Second change for me is my over-all appearance. A few months ago, I failed my PT Test. In order to pass it, I had to lose some weight (mostly inches) to pass the test. Sadly I was at a 41 inch waiste. I had to lose 7 inches if I wanted to even think of passing. Nicole as my biggest motivator. Everyone didn't think I could do it. So 3 months last, I lost 6 inches, did my push-ups and sit-ups and a 1 1/2 run. I went from a score of 50% to an 80% I also lost 15 pounds. Luckily, I have not gain any back. So with that big change, I wanted to make a few more changes. I started with my toes. I used to get my toes done all the time. But I stopped taking care of me and focused on everyone else. So now it is about me for a while. Toes first. They make me happy to see them painted. Little designs and fun colors (with the exception of pink) make me smile. It is like a little fun surprise. Take my socks off and surprise, they just brighten up my toes. I know, I sound silly. Then I had to buy new clothes. Nothing fit. All too baggy. Last today I am going to get my hair cut. Donna (my sister) suggests i get it layers and framed to my face. The last time I really got my hair cut was 6 years ago. I cut 38 inches off and donated it to Locks of Love. OK 38 inches as a little drastic and I cried for about 2 weeks. Right now, it is about 24 inches and falls in the middle of my back. A trim. Maybe a 1/2 and inch or so. yeah that sounds good.

Third change..... to be more girly. I have started to wear jewerly and body sprays. I little lipstick and the eye lash stuff. Donna put blush on me the other day for pictures and I looked completely different. I have been wearing my hair down, instead of a bun. Sometimes I will even put lotion on. My goal is to do at least two girly things a day. If you can picture Sandra Bullock in Miss Congeniality, thats me. A plain jane and happy who I am . I dont think I need a team to fix me up, but I can make little changes and keep adding. Dont take me the wrong way, I like who I am. In pictures, I never seems to change. I like the same way I did 5 and 10 years ago. So I think change is good. For me, it is going to be like a bandage. I can't do it gradually, I just need to ripe it off and then move on.